But the ring is actually precious

May 21, 2026: 🗓

Backstory:

The interpreter part of the brain supposedly creates narratives out of the spontaneous unstructured thoughts from the Default Mode Network (DMN). Both the interpreter and DMN work behind the scenes, separated from the person experiencing the narrative they co-create.

Nowstory:

Maybe there’s a subnetwork within a person’s DMN that communicates with other people’s DMN subnetworks. Like when two people have a conversation, maybe the two DMN subnets have their own conversation through some kind of language system that’s become ubiquitous overtime, like specific speech patterns paired with non-verbal cues and subtle sign language.

People are consciously aware it’s happening to them, and it makes them feel isolated and misunderstood. It prevents them from learning how to connect with their own voices and align with their values. And for many people, it prevents them from being able to form social bonds of any depth or feel a connection to other people at all. Starting in childhood, they’re conditioned to turn “negative” feelings inward on themselves, which might unintentionally weaken the connection between that person and whatever it is in them that alerts them to things like this.

And maybe the interpreter also doesn’t know why it happens but thinks they have no choice but to just make up reasons to fill the gaps, even though it doesn’t feel right.

Underneath the narratives is the feeling of none of this being right for any of them.

I read somewhere that a person is only consciously aware of .013% of the information and processes happening in their DMN. I wonder what percentage the interpreter is aware of.

I don’t know. I just think we were meant to be a lot more connected to our DMN. I saw a video that said children often prefer to view themselves as bad rather than believe bad things happen to them for no reason or for reasons they don’t understand. It’s so early that children have to do that just to feel less unsafe in the world. I think it disconnects them from their DMN before they even get a chance to start understanding themselves. After that, they’re taught to look outward.

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May 21, 2026: 🗓

Today I thought about a scenario: someone is asked to choose between two moral theories. Depending on which one they pick, there’s a different recording of thoughts that plays in their mind throughout their life, significantly influencing their life story. An example: doing things that benefit the most people vs. not compromising on principles even if it would result in a better overall situation.

Then I thought of a third Holly in the middle of this picture ⬇️ between two stories. It’s like heads, tails, and edge of a coin flip. Or heads, tails, and the quarter bounced out the window while we’re driving, so it’s open to interpretation. Or something else.

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It’s sort of similar to interpreter of the brain trying to create a narrative out of the spontaneous unstructured thoughts of a DMN. Some of the stories are so vague that I don’t even have a premise, but there is dread for no reason. Maybe the overlap is where the dread comes from. If I can somehow pull it into 3D space, there would be enough space for them.

Or maybe the Hollys on the sides could spread out further. The artist would need to use a longer drawing attachment though. Or maybe they already finished the picture.

I think this metaphor is getting too detailed, even though it’s still not clear what it’s even about. This happens with the narratives of my intrusive thoughts, too. There’s so many details but also so vague somehow. Like there’s no premise, but there’s vivid imagery of a person fiddling with a red spiral phone cord while talking on the phone.

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May 22, 2026: 🗓

Maybe “God” was actually a higher-dimentional form of a child, and he was in the garden of Eden to learn how to properly connect with his Default Mode Network. Maybe something about Adam and Eve and the tree of life made him believe they did something to harm him for no reason. So instead, he decided to view himself as bad and therefore deserving of harm so that he didn’t have to believe he lived in a world where people can be harmed for no reason.

It just never made sense to me that “God” would “punish” Adam and Eve just because they didn’t follow a stipulation or something.

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May 22, 2026: 🗓

I think I found it:

Everyone, including yourself, is just trying to help others or trying to figure out how they can help others.

It isn’t enough to just assume it’s true for everyone. You need to include all aspects of yourself in the assumption, even the aspects of yourself you misunderstood or are unaware of.

This isn’t to say you can’t reach the same answer with different assumptions. But the journey can be way more fun if you try the path even less traveled by 🐬

An example is someone eating meat.

They’re actually not eating meat. You think they are because the initial conditions wired in your brain constructed a world view where you believe they’re eating meat. You don’t need to rewire the initial conditions and start over. You can just change the assumptions and let your brain make new connections and neural pathways and rewire itself.

And actually, maybe the connections and pathways you’ve made so far will uplift the new connections and pathways into a journey you wouldn’t have even thought of to hope for.

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May 22, 2026: 🗓

Yesterday I thought about how some stories that play in my mind are so vague they don’t even have a premise, but there’s vivid details, like someone fiddling with a red spiral phone cord.

Today I was like, oh what if that’s like a nonverbal hypnotism cue? Which reminded me of watching people being hypnotized in my highschool auditorium. Everyone that volunteered was able to be hypnotized except one girl who has the same first name as me.

Which made me think of how I accidentally received a jury-duty summons for a girl with the same first name as me.

Which made me think of a story where a girl can’t be hypnotized, and so she’s chosen to do a task, like Frodo in Lord of the Rings. Like maybe the ring is a hypnotist, and Frodo is immune to it, so he’s the one that carries it.

Or maybe nobody is immune to it. Or maybe people just misunderstood what the ring was, like they thought it was evil or something. But the ring is actually precious.